Finding our Little Russian son!

David and I have begun our adoption journey! Not quite sure if we can maintain our emotions, sanity and excitement. We started this journey and next chapter of our lifes, because we want a family. After years of infertility issues, we decided to do IVF- invetro fertilization. It worked, we got pregnant with twins and life was good.....but only for a moment. We miscarried our boy/girl (Ryan & Aubrey) twins at 19 weeks. So we of course we very upset, lost and angry. So we made a goal of trying again. Maybe too soon for David but I was ready. My thoughts were there is now way it can happen again! So we used 2 of our 4 frozen eggs. We got pregnant again! With 3! So in that pregnancy fear set in, and constant worrying. At 11weeks we lost one of the triplets, and I had a cerclage put in place. Thing were on a steady path, no bumps......until our 19th week mark. Went in for an anatomy scan. Then we got a mountain of a bump, the twins ( girls) were conjoined at the belly button. As the drama unfolded in the next couple weeks of "what should we do", and "we will get through this", I started having contractions and by the time we got to the hospital I was 3 cm. So our journey wasn't meant to be. I had a c-section at 21weeks and named our extremely premature twins Hope&Faith. Those names mean alot because we will now live not only for those names but by them!

Hope and Faith are what we are hanging onto. We are excited that the road doesn't end for us and adoption is still an option. David and I choose Russia, because the country just appealed to us! We are using an agency that seems to have alot experience not only professionally, but personally with Russia. They are a non-profit agency group of mothers them self that each have adopted children. Some from Russia and also from Guatemala. David and I feel good with them. We gave them our "first" application. So its pretty big for us to really get the ball rolling on this. Even though the ball doesn't always stay rolling in this process. We are just trying to stay positive, but realistic! This process isn't any easier than a pregnancy. But I think the chances of a beautiful baby at the end, has a higher % then a pregnancy....at least for me!

So keep up on our Adoption Journey, sure to be a wild ride!