Dossier Packet!

Well the agency has sent my a list of forms that have to be filled out. Still waiting for SC-DSS to send final approval of home study. (tick-tock-tick-tock) So I'am going to organize all the information in a binder and figure out how many of each I need. I need two copy's notarized and Apostilled. One for the agency, one to go over to Russia for Translation. Then I just need a photo copy for me too keep when we go over there. As much as I want to spend hours on the paper work, so it is done. I wont. We are going to take our time and make sure everything is 110%. Otherwise Russia will send it back and have us do it over again. :( Some good news today! David and I were about to spend $750 on a new clutch for our Jeep, but realized it just needed clutch fluid. Good that $750 in our adoption fund! I'll post In big hudge letter when we get our approval from DSS

In Memory OF our May Angels

This month has been difficult, on the 28th and 29th is our one year anniversary, from our first b/g twin loss. We are still doing the Russian adoption. Taking our time. It was our best decision to do. Our goal is family. SO what ever it takes. My personal goal in this IF (infertility battle) was when I started at 21. I told myself and David when I hit 30 I'm done. I will adopt. But after 2 twin miscarriages due to IC (incompetent cervix). And one of those sets were conjoined at the belly button. I cant go through another loss. Not yet. I'll flip my lid.

So we decided to Adopt now. And let that love we want to give to a child heal us. I still have two more frozen eggs. I still have one more try in me. But in time. I think the hurt wont be so bad, if I lost another pregnancy when there was a child home waiting for me, needs OUR love and guidance. So what, not blood, but it all comes down to love. Giving and receiving. We have spent thousands of $. Just like most IVF's do. But I want to be a mom NOW! SO that is what made our decision on adoption. I know its not for everyone. But it is right for David and I. I hope all us infertile's can find the happiness and peace we're looking for. If you have the will to fight, and go through it for 6,7,10+ years then do it! I don't anymore. I need a break from the death. Its too much on this heart. So at 26 I hope this process can bring a baby in our arms!



Patti & David
Parents of angels
Ryan & Aubrey 5/28+29/2007
Hope and Faith 2/5/2008

Home Study was a Breeze~!

ALL that worrying, there was no need for. I was under the assumption that we would have more then one meeting, but I guess not. She asked us the standered questions, on how we met, our family support, and about our parenting style. She was sooo nice. It was a very relaxing. She toured our house. I was even joking with her, about how lucky she was too see our bed made. She joked back. It was like talking to a friend. She was very helpful, she has 2 adopted children from Russia also, and a set of twin daughters. We showed her our nursery, and she made a comment on how beauitful it would be for our son. Can you believe it, she said, "our son" . It made me think, yeah shes right OUR SON! Up until now we have been referring to"our son" as "the child". I guess for emotional reasons. But it felt good.


Next I'm going to email her pictures of us, the house, nursery, the dogs...ect. Then the only challenging thing now is choosing a set of god parents. Because Russia requires us to pick another guardian just in case anything were to happen to David or I. Then she'll send it all into DSS, and then we wait for them to finalize it. And We start the rest of our Dossier.

Here are two pics of the nursery!